Well hello everyone. How have you been? I've been pretty shit myself. Where does it all begin... Oh I know last year me and my boyfriend of 3yrs broke up. Yeah I know that sucks but him and I are still atleast good friends. Or so I think.
So a few months after him and I split I got involved with this fucking idiot who's nothing but a completely and total loser and junkie. Well anyway him and myself started dating and boy wasnt that a mistake lol. When him and I first started dating he was kool and all and I didnt know he did ever drug in the world until I one took him to see his crack head friend and there I seen it... I seen him doing crack, weed, acid, and heroin. Considering my Dad is a cop I really never been around that shit or seen it in person. I think drugs and shit and one of the dumbest things someone could do to themselves.
So time went on and I didnt take him anywhere he would just go on his on and do that shit. People started asking me if I dont that shit and was like "fuck no and you couldnt pay me enough to" I mean i'm not a fucking retard. AS time drug on he started bitching so much he didnt want me to hang out with anyone at all but him. So I finelly kick his ass to the curb. I'm not one for being controled and he thought I was. lol Stupid boy huh?
Anyway things at the present moment are ok I guess my son is so big know and very smart I couldnt ask for a more beautiful person in my life. I'm finelly getting back into talking to my friends again and i'm thankful for that cause damn I missed them.
Oh and last night I went and hung out with my baby's daddy yesterday and must say that was a hell of a time. Very very nice!! lol ;-)
''-Phoenix
Sunday, March 18, 2007
Sunday, October 01, 2006
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Just for you Gary!
I love ya and you know it. You better know it. lol ;-P
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Every time I feel my body in your arms, I feel secure and nothing in the world can touch me.
Every time I feel your lips press against my cheek, my heart beats fast, and I really want us to last
Every time I feel your hand clasp mine, nothing in the world can break us apart
Every time I feel you hug me, I feel warm when I'm cold, no matter how cold it is
Every time I think of you I pray that well always be together -because no one else makes me feel like the way you do
And because I really do love you
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Your shadow by the window makes my heartbeat quicken.
Goosebumps arise along the trail of your fingertips.
My breath becomes shallow with the departure of your kiss.
I hear the sound of your desire in your throat.
Your legs are tangled in mine.
My fingers run through your hair.
The night is no longer as cool.
You look at me with a burning passion in your eyes.
I think back to how I imagined this night and nothing compares.
I stop thinking as your body commands my focus.
Your back is smooth, sweating and victim to my fingernails.
Our movements pick up pace as our feelings deepen.
I tilt back my head and feel myself losing control.
You are my taste, my touch, my sight, my smell, and I am yours.
It feels too much, but is it going to be enough?
I am so close; I don't think I can slow this down.
I let go in toe curling, earth shattering ecstasy just as you do the same.
I collapse in your arms and we drift to that place of dreams.
In the morning I worry that it was all fantasy.
I roll over, see you and smile.
Peace, ME
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Every time I feel my body in your arms, I feel secure and nothing in the world can touch me.
Every time I feel your lips press against my cheek, my heart beats fast, and I really want us to last
Every time I feel your hand clasp mine, nothing in the world can break us apart
Every time I feel you hug me, I feel warm when I'm cold, no matter how cold it is
Every time I think of you I pray that well always be together -because no one else makes me feel like the way you do
And because I really do love you
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Your shadow by the window makes my heartbeat quicken.
Goosebumps arise along the trail of your fingertips.
My breath becomes shallow with the departure of your kiss.
I hear the sound of your desire in your throat.
Your legs are tangled in mine.
My fingers run through your hair.
The night is no longer as cool.
You look at me with a burning passion in your eyes.
I think back to how I imagined this night and nothing compares.
I stop thinking as your body commands my focus.
Your back is smooth, sweating and victim to my fingernails.
Our movements pick up pace as our feelings deepen.
I tilt back my head and feel myself losing control.
You are my taste, my touch, my sight, my smell, and I am yours.
It feels too much, but is it going to be enough?
I am so close; I don't think I can slow this down.
I let go in toe curling, earth shattering ecstasy just as you do the same.
I collapse in your arms and we drift to that place of dreams.
In the morning I worry that it was all fantasy.
I roll over, see you and smile.
Peace, ME
Thursday, September 21, 2006
"Wrong again" by Martina McBride
"Wrong again" by Martina McBride
From the day we met
You made me forget
All my fears
Knew just what to say
And you kissed away
All my tears
I knew this time I had finally found
Someone to build my life around
Be a lover and a friend
After all my heart had put me through
I knew that it was safe with you
And what we had would never end
Wrong again
Everybody swore
They’d seen this before
We’d be fine
And you’d come to see that you still loved me
In good time
And they said there’s nothing you can do
It’s something that he’s going through
It happens to a lot of men
And I told myself that they were right
That you’d wake up and see the light
And I just had to wait ’til then
Wrong again
And it seemed to me the pain would last
My chance for happiness had passed
And nothing waited ’round the bend
I was sure I’d never find someone
To heal the damage you had done
And my poor heart would never mend
Wrong again
Wrong again
From the day we met
You made me forget
All my fears
Knew just what to say
And you kissed away
All my tears
I knew this time I had finally found
Someone to build my life around
Be a lover and a friend
After all my heart had put me through
I knew that it was safe with you
And what we had would never end
Wrong again
Everybody swore
They’d seen this before
We’d be fine
And you’d come to see that you still loved me
In good time
And they said there’s nothing you can do
It’s something that he’s going through
It happens to a lot of men
And I told myself that they were right
That you’d wake up and see the light
And I just had to wait ’til then
Wrong again
And it seemed to me the pain would last
My chance for happiness had passed
And nothing waited ’round the bend
I was sure I’d never find someone
To heal the damage you had done
And my poor heart would never mend
Wrong again
Wrong again
Sunday, September 17, 2006
Its been a while, huh?
So here's whats been happening in my life lately. Well as most have heard I broke up with Preston and the reason for that happening is his and my relationship got so bad that we started actually fighting each other. Ya know I suppose we were just to different for it to work. I dont regret for a minute being with him though. I guess I learned a lot about myself. I hope nothing but the best for him and I hope he finds his perfect princess, ya know? I'm actually trying to still be friends with him mostly for Rian but he is making it very fucking hard. Preston and his little girlfriends keep bothering me and the thing is I dont know any of them. Oh well they'll learn not to fuck with me in time.
Anyway, my best friend came and stayed with me for a few months but she had to go back home because she found out her mom has cancer. "GOD BLESS YOU". Anyway, when she was here we started going to church. I converted to Roman Calolic religion. I love it to death. The one place I feel I belong ya know? Well I hope I see my friend soon. I love you girl.
In other news. There is a very importent person that came in my life some months ago. He is very special to me. Ya know I thought I was going to crack up untill he came around. I would have to say he is my best friend too. He is the only guy I know that can make me laugh all the time. He is a true sweet heart. He has a bit of anger problem LOL JUST PLAYING. Anyway Gary you are very sweet and you really do mean a lot to me. I hope you never go away.
A few words on Rian. He is EVIL. lol Just playing. He is doing good. He is so smart and funny. He is often sad cause he dont get to spend hardly anytime with his father. Papa, Uncle Trevor, and even Gary spend a lot of time with him so he does have men in his life. I know that Rian still would love to spend time with Preston though but ya know things will workout.
later
shannon
Anyway, my best friend came and stayed with me for a few months but she had to go back home because she found out her mom has cancer. "GOD BLESS YOU". Anyway, when she was here we started going to church. I converted to Roman Calolic religion. I love it to death. The one place I feel I belong ya know? Well I hope I see my friend soon. I love you girl.
In other news. There is a very importent person that came in my life some months ago. He is very special to me. Ya know I thought I was going to crack up untill he came around. I would have to say he is my best friend too. He is the only guy I know that can make me laugh all the time. He is a true sweet heart. He has a bit of anger problem LOL JUST PLAYING. Anyway Gary you are very sweet and you really do mean a lot to me. I hope you never go away.
A few words on Rian. He is EVIL. lol Just playing. He is doing good. He is so smart and funny. He is often sad cause he dont get to spend hardly anytime with his father. Papa, Uncle Trevor, and even Gary spend a lot of time with him so he does have men in his life. I know that Rian still would love to spend time with Preston though but ya know things will workout.
later
shannon
Friday, December 23, 2005
MY LAYOUT NOW
Everyone my current layout is very ugly I intended for it to be ugly. lol I have got emails and comments from people saying its cute or great. ITS NOT! lol It's extremely ugly. Thanks for being nice everyone but I know its ugly.
Later
Shannon
Later
Shannon
Saturday, December 03, 2005
Jeff Hardy
Wow. How beautiful is this man? lol
I went to see SCW tonight it was cool. Then later on Jeff came out and I was like wwwoooowww. He is so much hotter in person. :-P I got a picture signed by him. I had to steal a picture frame from my crazy mother whom i'm sure will raise heel when she finds out.
My son grabbed this diva's boobs. lol He loves women. He got his picture took with Tracy Brooks and Amber O'Neal. He's a little pimp. Mean ass little shit acts sweet around other people but is really evil, seriously he's bad.
HAHAHA Darrell and Prynce I posted about it before you. Ha ha ha ha ha. :-D :-P You guys suck.
I went to see SCW tonight it was cool. Then later on Jeff came out and I was like wwwoooowww. He is so much hotter in person. :-P I got a picture signed by him. I had to steal a picture frame from my crazy mother whom i'm sure will raise heel when she finds out.
My son grabbed this diva's boobs. lol He loves women. He got his picture took with Tracy Brooks and Amber O'Neal. He's a little pimp. Mean ass little shit acts sweet around other people but is really evil, seriously he's bad.
HAHAHA Darrell and Prynce I posted about it before you. Ha ha ha ha ha. :-D :-P You guys suck.
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